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again.

and the next great time i've spent with envylicious, ended today morning. and i feel very lonely and sad. and i want her to hug me again. and damn i just can't wait to have a job and my own flat. and live with her and don't care about my fucking mother. heh. sometimes i feel that i won't make it. and i want to cry... but then i realize how much do you mean to me, i have that feeling of our victory. the victory of happiness. and everything will be okay, right? because i can make it and you too! so, be strong honey, and just don't care about that! it will be okay.  i love you so much. and want to see you soon! <3
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a myślałam, że potrafię dać to, czego pragniesz.
świat bywa zakłamany, a kairi robi z igły widły, jak zwykle i w taki sam sposób.
bitch ze mnie i tyle.
hurts.

[edit]właśnie spostrzegłam, iż zachowuję się jak własna babcia. life sucks.
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oops!

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cierpie na cholerny brak fotek .^. i przypadkiem szukając jakichś natknęłam się na nasze małe cudeńko. wr. czemu nie robimy zdjęć, kiedy się spotykamy? >_> musimy odrobić! w końcu będziemy miały fotographa :D luuuv!
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    nihgtwish - nemo
[marriage]

empty.

w sumie to po cholerę mam pisać po angielsku, skoro i tak nikt tu prawie nie wchodzi? wzdeech.
tęsknota doskwiera coraz bardziej wraz ze zbliżającym się wyjazdem do nighty. well, zauważyłam, że zawsze tak mam. dosyć dziwna przypadłość, no ale cóż pradzić. od wczoraj totalnie zbiera mi się na płacz, kiedy czytam jakieś stare notki, listy, wszystko. no i kiedy słucham zajebiście dołujących piosenek, które ostatnimi czasy namiętnie ściągam. po nocach śnią mi się skrzydła. żebym w końcu mogła się na nich oprzeć i odlecieć gdzieś.
daleko. nie wiem gdzie.
gdzieś, gdzie będę tylko z tobą.
czuję się taka ciężka. taka... przepełniona pustką. a to paradoks, hę?
ale już niedługo.
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    missy higgins - the special two
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just...

... just like i thought... i really need some psycho-doctor or something.
i don't know why words like this: 'hey, hope you will recieve your present tomorrow!' make me sad... and so empty. maybe it's because of that nobody but you gives me something for the special days? and because of that im positive about that if you recieve a gift - the person who gave it to you is your beloved person. well. i feel bad again... and need some hug...


envy.
envy.
envy.
ENVY.
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    my mom's snoring _^_
no stopping me!

some test xD:*

(fill out the charts below.. post in muh comments)
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF I
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you fuck me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
who? ME?

h. b. sunny...

well, today's 8th april. my love's brithday... last year that day was... well. i felt so happieh, at night. like i've never felt before. and in the evening... just cried. because of her brithday. everybody gave her so beautiful and fancy things. and me? ph. nothing. heh, don't ask, i felt so stupid. like a bitch, or something. yeah, that wasn't a nice feeling... you know, i want to be better. i shouldn't think about each others presents. i need to think about what i should give her, right? and think about that she's smiling when she recives gifts from me. i'll try. but it's too hard... and... i just... need a little help. will you give me your hand? will you show me the way i used to love you? and erase that envy out me? please. help me, sunny...

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